She looks like a Disney princess, something someone drew on a sketchpad full of cartoon birds and flowers, all eyes and cheekbones and heart-shaped mouth. I’m struck with a sudden and disorienting sense of déjà vu. Do all beautiful people look the same? Is that what it means to be beautiful, similar shapes drawn in microcosmic variations over and over?
“Oh,” she says, and then, “well, fuck.”
According to the tabloids, Estine is crazy. A drug addict. A diva. Bubblegum pop's bad girl, fresh out of rehab and ready to embark on her triumphant tour.
Clara Juarez, reluctant makeup artist, expects nothing less when she accepts a job from Estine's PR firm. Instead, she finds the pop star to be unexpectedly intelligent, sarcastic, strange, and deeply, deeply miserable.
Beaten into apathy by years spent as Management's pretty puppet, Estine isn't expecting anything at all from this tour. Just more of the same. And then she meets Clara: irreverent, sweet, playful, and entirely unimpressed by Estine's fame. Estine, who never connects with anyone, finds herself helplessly drawn to Clara.
But can any connection survive the dehumanizing public ordeal of being famous, when everything Estine does is filmed, photographed, posted, liked, and commented on? If not, how does love ever have a chance?
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